Cracked Crayola

Cracked Crayola

Broken Crayons and blank canvases
formula for the colors
yet I don’t know what the answer is

Masterpieces from disasters, no sharpener on the box
using the brown backend to outline the jagged rocks

Lightly shading clouds with the unraveled paper of blue
dreaming of being with the picture cuz it’s a better view

Bright sun rays set a blaze for a scene that looks mellow
outlined my shine with dull reds crumbled yellows

Envisioned with smiles though it looks sharp and mean
all my blades of grass are the same color green

And the recked rec center field appears to be Wales mountain Blorenge
so I sketch it on out with my half pieces of orange

There’s people all around staring at what I’m wearing
while trying to discover…
…My suit it’s purple got it at Shoppers World with my mother
with my black penny loafer they were hand me downs from my brother

Broken Crayons and blank canvases
formula for the colors
yet I don’t know what the answer is

I draw what I see and it’s never what it appears
there has to be more than 7mile
man I gotta get outta here

Couldn’t complain that my hand wasn’t the same
it was awkward like being 10 times the size of your nickname
Let them have their 24
you take that 8
with the right frame of mind your image will still be great

Lifes ups and downs all comes with the mixture
take whatever colors you have and make the perfect picture

Cracked Crayola

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Crown me #TheUnpleasedKing

The Unpleased King

I offered them my best, but I only demanded more
Never pained me in my heart but knotted up my core

Blood teared ulcers drowned in cognac sorrows
Crown myself today but crucify myself tomorrow
Consistently looking for a praise that I can borrow

Knowing there’s straighten arrow path…
It’s too narrow for my nature
I take a few steps on the road and laugh

Listen to the birds just soaring in the sky
Perplexed with the question of why not I

The fear of falling got me scared of flying… Timid living
A holy life got me kind of bored…now I’m sinning
Maybe if they paid attention more it’d be different
Or I coulda opened up more but who the fuck I’m kiddin

My eternal issues are an internal issue.
Say a pray for me -not pity-
I need God not your tissue.

Waiting on my big break hope it’s not down…
They say you either sink or swim
Maybe this is where I drown

My true reign still remains to be seen. Eclipsed by my enemies haunting me in my dreams. Ignoring all the conquering I accomplished in this regime.

No matter how my run went

Crown me  #TheUnpleasedKing

A note from Banner

Banner

They loved him calm, intelligent, collected.
His intellect was one that was highly respected.

Underneath it all was a monster in rage locked in a cage
to afraid to face the mistakes that he had made.

Destroyed everything in his grasp, all the hulk wanted was someone to make him laugh, hold his hand understand make the beautiful moments last… But they left

Can’t blame them for saving themselves for the danger of his gamma couldn’t change the pain he felt. But he hides it. Hides the fact he pushes him away. Hoping someone loves him as strong as he is too stay…but they don’t they couldn’t and they shouldn’t be a fool for loving him from a distance is the only way not too lose.

They created this monster
that I could never conquer
I embraced my pain
hoping things would change
Its a shame what I’ve become
Trying to be what they would want

I couldn’t walk away from pain and I ran away from love.

Banner

A Dream Deferred

Broken beaten battered and bruised
Don’t let my size fool you things hurt me too.
I can’t beat the odds unless I break all the rules
so I’d be praise dancing with Satan while moon lighting with Jesus hoping blessings come through…
God give me a reason to continue

Nightmares causes ulcers waking up in my own blood, washing away all visions killing hope in the flood. Push forward or retreat I cry my eyes when I hear the word
if The Lord chose me why all my dreams deferred.

Family becomes absent they don’t see the picture, fake friends become distant when you thought they would ride wit you,
girls don’t understand what it’s like to be a man that sacrifices for the plan that has a destination but no land.

Nightmares causes ulcers waking up in my own blood, washing away all visions killing hope in the flood. Push forward or retreat I cry my eyes when I hear the word
if The Lord chose me why all my dreams deferred.

I black out see it all from the pain to the product.
They clap for me but they don’t have clue about my conduct.
I’m destroyed covered by illusion of my peers,
trying to carry out the mission while I’m still here.

Nightmares causes ulcers waking up in my own blood, washing away all visions killing hope in the flood. Push forward or retreat I cry my eyes when I hear the word
if The Lord chose me why all my dreams deferred.

Turned the other cheek too many times, lifted my head just a couple more. Every time I checked the board I had the losing score. All those opportunities they’ve been granted I begged for and got slanted Took this as a sign that it’s simply not my time, not designed for the struggle and I’m worn from the grind.

Nightmares causes ulcers waking up in my own blood, washing away all visions killing hope in the flood. Push forward or retreat I cry my eyes when I hear the word
if The Lord chose me why all my dreams deferred.

I’m empty I’m feeling lonely my past starting to own me,
no love could console the dreams this world has stole.
My circumstances is different, can’t find anyone to listen,
it’s rage in me thats building.
They’re privileged while I’m hindered. I’m scarred near and far, the light hurts just like the dark, it’s all blackening my heart. My vision has been blurred my speech has been slurred, goals grew wings like a bird…and left me with…

A
A dream
A dream deferred

Unfortunately I regret to inform you all that this will be my final piece until I find peace. The poetry has gotten to a personal level that it’s to “raw” to just share with the world. Thank you all for your continued support, comments, likes and reposts. Poetry for me was a way of coping with the lows of life and celebrating the highs. I hope you all share your gifts and inspire others… Until the words reach you again #Farewell

Random Adam part 1 (clean)

Random Adam part 1

Dear Eve
I’m

Taking deep breaths inhaling heaven,
Closing my eyes counting backwards from seven
Until you appear…
But your still not here.
Truly I don’t care knowing that your off changing the worlds neglect
Doing what you have to do too remain perfect…
I often applaud out of respect,

Let me just tell you…what fresh air can do

A breath of fresh air renewing my spirit
Day dreams of you rejuvenating my heartbeat so you can hear it
Walk around like a lost child carrying this big hidden smile
Displaying random acts of kindness
You’ve given me joy and I don’t care how you found this

I’ve watched you from afar
hoping too get closer and notice a flaw
As a reminder you’re human not some fictitious statued mermaid
being portrayed I a. Museum of the raw
Let the audience pay attention while being struck by awe
And they’ll all say awwwww

Awwww let me just tell you what I’ve seen

Capturing moments and places in time
Translating your syllables in rhyme
futuristic thoughts of you being mine
Becomes stain print glass in my mind

(And I don’t need no windex wit cho fine ass)

Reaching out with sewn together sonnets so strong of twine
The slight touch of my adjectives tingles your spine
Cling too them wether they be in transit or yet to transport
Suited with armor piercing arrows ready to launch from my cohort

All ready, let me just tell you what I’ve felt

Amazing would be an understatement
wonderful just couldn’t paint
An overwhelming feeling
from a mysterious being
Constantly bringing a breathe of fresh air

PS

Breathe deep lets go to that place again,
erase the pain again, escape that rain again underneath that barrier within
That you seldom let me in…

Signed
Adam

The Road

The Road

What dreams may come once you decide the dream is no longer enough
When is enough is enough
And you can no longer be tough
…so…you…get…tougher
But every mistake makes you wonder
If the path you’re on is meant to cause this discomfort

Am I unpleasing in His eye
Is this punishment you humbly ask why
Beaten to bended knee
but to prideful to cry
At your wits end but too scared to die
Always fearful of what you’d leave behind

So it’s hard too go… Even harder to let go
You become subdued in your mood that you can’t alter your attitude

But you can’t stay here, can’t remain in this place
Your road leads to greatness and greatness is no race
Just move your feet… Please

On this journey for peace
I’ve been broken to pieces
Submerged in my pain to the point I don’t need this

But not yet defeated, the potholes in the street only cause for distractions
the progression going forward is the main course of action
Prayer is the GPS and Jesus is your traction
…tread fearlessly

there’s glory in the fight
Don’t go easy in the night
Throw hands out never up
There’s strength when one triumphs

Those lost souls see you, they need you, they believe you
Pursue with all you have
& you’ll have all you pursue

Remorse is for the weak
Pity is for the pitiful
Dare to be different, never mind the ridicule

The road to success is paved with curves, not straight paths
A couple no luck boulevards and broken heart aves

But be a pyro with passion today
ignite flamed torches & find your way

But be a pyro with passion today
ignite flamed torches & find your way

On this road

Peace-Illusion

Peace-Illusion

Thoughts can be so captivating that you escape the harshness of present time.
Day dreams of futures sketch like the perfect architect in my mind
I’m viewing the perfect piece of art at a blank canvas from the start
And…I…have…the…paint…brush

I tried to draw you but the image wasn’t true
because the pencil can’t produce what my Illusions came too
Troubled water calmed from the storms of the east
I escape to a portrait just to find Peace

Flash forward not fast forward don’t wanna spoil the ending of this…
The Illusion of bliss never seemed so crisp
Resolution so def that I’m high on sight
Dancing with an angel under full moon light

I tried to watch you but the image wasn’t true
Because the video can’t produce what my Illusions came too
Troubled water calmed from the storms of the east
I escape to my memories just to find Peace

Or we can two step in the dark to the strings of a harp
Strung together consistent with the beat of 3hearts
But only 4ears hear it yet another seems to feel it
Whistling sounds of airbrushes with the spirit

I tried to write a tune but the image wasn’t true
Because the music can’t produce what my Illusions came too
Troubled water calmed from the storms of the east
I escape to the rhythm just to find Peace

Sonnets depict epic visions of words aligned to define this art in mind
And spoken illustrations of magical situations manifesting silhouettes
Of this literary text, let me text you my thoughts or write you a piece,
I could sing to you but my lock would be off key
Capture you in motion picture but this is no movie
Sketch on repeat but that wouldn’t be in sync
…With the …Illusions of Peace

I tried to speak but the image wasn’t true
Because the words can’t produce what my Illusions came too
Troubled water calmed from the storms of the east
I escape to poetry just to find Peace

Bleed Out

Bleed out bleed out bleed bleed bleed out
Let my pulsating truth
Free me from all your bondage
Let every emotional memory stain this pavement
Engrave this concrete as a symbolism of permanence
For here I bleed out permanently letting go
Bleed out

I miss you not sure if it’s because you’re familiar
Or just realer
So I yearn to push you away
But you love me so you stay
And the abuse gets worse, our communication is cursed
So I find excuses to lead you
But one more just to leave you
Foolishly kicking myself
Selfishly killing yourself

Bleed out just maybe you can find a way to save me
We can weather any storm for we were born to adorn
But don’t mourn if I just bleed out

Honestly I love you more than you can imagine
But I couldn’t imagine spending my life with a fire breathing dragon
Strong enough to break a nail
But you couldn’t bend to show you cared
Even tho I’m a man I admit I needed you there
The slightest mistake made you offensive
A little too argumentative
Stern in your will yet timid in your skill
For you rather destroy me to build you

I’ve chased you for centuries
Yet you’ve always alluded me
Too kind to be mean
So I cling to this dream
“a date with destiny
& you said be on time
Told me wear some nice shoes and bring a bottle of wine
We’re gonna dance in our socks
While our mothers don’t watch”
As reality strikes in the middle of the night
Dreams fade away before I get the chance to say
That your looks are crucial
Your ditsy personality makes you all the more beautiful
How blessed I am to have ever held your hand
Though I’ll never understand why you never gave me a chance
Possibly I took the wrong route
Let a brother bleed out…bleed out

Let my thoughts be no action
As I cut into this flesh
And the ink bleeds out until there’s nothing left
As it all drys so does my desires
Close my open wounds with the fire y’all ignited

Bleed… Out!

Famous & Infamous

Famous
My grey skies tell the best stories
Rainy days showed more glory
The sunny days are on vacays in a beach house with me snoring…
Life is too boring
Havoc and pain don’t cost to entertain
Well unless it’s 2cent in this love arcade
They all think you got it made
Just a sick form of torture
As your memory plays funerals at the alter
Trading off freedom for their preconceived notions
Gravity smacks you to the pavement cuz your nose wide open
High off of life until they steal your last breath
You gaze into the mirror only to see what’s left
Just speckles of yourself
As your conscience speculates and that cynic that your were starts to reincarnate
Reminding you of who are although they all call you great
Taking pop shots at the icon just to see if you will break…
And you do
Humpty Dumpty ass fool
You’re only as high as they lift you
Only as strong as your mental
Make a mistake they’ll forget you
Do something nice they’ll forgive you
Be who they see not who you are that’s how fame gets you far
Until you gassed out and let down phased out like a star

Infamous
We all want to be famous until they forget what our name is.
Our biggest fans become our toughest critics. It’s too easy to get consumed by who they want you to be, and if you allow them to win you can become seriously empty. Life grants you numerous opportunities don’t allow how others depict you to determine which ones you take. The shame is in buying in to the twisted vision believing that they’ll always be there. Fame can imprison us all, cage you into a status quo existence. Freedom is not only loving yourself but being yourself. Be a warrior of truth or you’ll be a worrier of lies… Theirs and your own.

LuHeff

575

575

Love me how I need
Committed to you for eternity of us
Endure now for future fortunes