Crown me #TheUnpleasedKing

The Unpleased King

I offered them my best, but I only demanded more
Never pained me in my heart but knotted up my core

Blood teared ulcers drowned in cognac sorrows
Crown myself today but crucify myself tomorrow
Consistently looking for a praise that I can borrow

Knowing there’s straighten arrow path…
It’s too narrow for my nature
I take a few steps on the road and laugh

Listen to the birds just soaring in the sky
Perplexed with the question of why not I

The fear of falling got me scared of flying… Timid living
A holy life got me kind of bored…now I’m sinning
Maybe if they paid attention more it’d be different
Or I coulda opened up more but who the fuck I’m kiddin

My eternal issues are an internal issue.
Say a pray for me -not pity-
I need God not your tissue.

Waiting on my big break hope it’s not down…
They say you either sink or swim
Maybe this is where I drown

My true reign still remains to be seen. Eclipsed by my enemies haunting me in my dreams. Ignoring all the conquering I accomplished in this regime.

No matter how my run went

Crown me  #TheUnpleasedKing

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A note from Banner

Banner

They loved him calm, intelligent, collected.
His intellect was one that was highly respected.

Underneath it all was a monster in rage locked in a cage
to afraid to face the mistakes that he had made.

Destroyed everything in his grasp, all the hulk wanted was someone to make him laugh, hold his hand understand make the beautiful moments last… But they left

Can’t blame them for saving themselves for the danger of his gamma couldn’t change the pain he felt. But he hides it. Hides the fact he pushes him away. Hoping someone loves him as strong as he is too stay…but they don’t they couldn’t and they shouldn’t be a fool for loving him from a distance is the only way not too lose.

They created this monster
that I could never conquer
I embraced my pain
hoping things would change
Its a shame what I’ve become
Trying to be what they would want

I couldn’t walk away from pain and I ran away from love.

Banner

A Dream Deferred

Broken beaten battered and bruised
Don’t let my size fool you things hurt me too.
I can’t beat the odds unless I break all the rules
so I’d be praise dancing with Satan while moon lighting with Jesus hoping blessings come through…
God give me a reason to continue

Nightmares causes ulcers waking up in my own blood, washing away all visions killing hope in the flood. Push forward or retreat I cry my eyes when I hear the word
if The Lord chose me why all my dreams deferred.

Family becomes absent they don’t see the picture, fake friends become distant when you thought they would ride wit you,
girls don’t understand what it’s like to be a man that sacrifices for the plan that has a destination but no land.

Nightmares causes ulcers waking up in my own blood, washing away all visions killing hope in the flood. Push forward or retreat I cry my eyes when I hear the word
if The Lord chose me why all my dreams deferred.

I black out see it all from the pain to the product.
They clap for me but they don’t have clue about my conduct.
I’m destroyed covered by illusion of my peers,
trying to carry out the mission while I’m still here.

Nightmares causes ulcers waking up in my own blood, washing away all visions killing hope in the flood. Push forward or retreat I cry my eyes when I hear the word
if The Lord chose me why all my dreams deferred.

Turned the other cheek too many times, lifted my head just a couple more. Every time I checked the board I had the losing score. All those opportunities they’ve been granted I begged for and got slanted Took this as a sign that it’s simply not my time, not designed for the struggle and I’m worn from the grind.

Nightmares causes ulcers waking up in my own blood, washing away all visions killing hope in the flood. Push forward or retreat I cry my eyes when I hear the word
if The Lord chose me why all my dreams deferred.

I’m empty I’m feeling lonely my past starting to own me,
no love could console the dreams this world has stole.
My circumstances is different, can’t find anyone to listen,
it’s rage in me thats building.
They’re privileged while I’m hindered. I’m scarred near and far, the light hurts just like the dark, it’s all blackening my heart. My vision has been blurred my speech has been slurred, goals grew wings like a bird…and left me with…

A
A dream
A dream deferred

Unfortunately I regret to inform you all that this will be my final piece until I find peace. The poetry has gotten to a personal level that it’s to “raw” to just share with the world. Thank you all for your continued support, comments, likes and reposts. Poetry for me was a way of coping with the lows of life and celebrating the highs. I hope you all share your gifts and inspire others… Until the words reach you again #Farewell